Now I have had a thousand dreams
And planned at least a hundred schemes
I’ve wished perhaps five hundred more
Before I close life’s final door.
I’ve tried so hard to not pretend
That I know how my days will end
Ere I have had the time to leave
Instructions as to how you grieve.
Remember me please, If you do
But only of my love for you
I can not ask for some thing more
Except, my dear, just one encore !
Lord help us to remember this
That life is not a hit or miss
Its purpose has been clearly known
And pathways have been rightly shown.
The way ahead may seem obscure
We need to know that road’s secure
Before we take our dreams to task
And of our God all favors ask !
I see the world through portals bound
By all the objects that we’ve found
To fill our lives with great excess
Of foolishness that we possess !
My life is o’er, how fast it went
I wonder where my time’s been spent
It’s passing by too swiftly now
The cradle has long left the bough.
I shall not pass this way again,
Perhaps I may remember when
The days have gone or passed on by
Each full of smiles or tears we’ve cried.
Oh how I wish that I would be
Some creature flitting, tree to tree
Who’s spent its life up in the air
Where only God and birds may share !
The pain is real and so intense
What shall I do for my defense
Oh blessed Lord reach out to me
And grant me some immunity
My faith is strong what shall I do
To prove that I believe in You ?
I’ve made the best of what I’ve got
And know this is my final shot
Please help me Lord to find some peace
As from this place I beg release !
AMEN.
There is a sound that I can hear
It seems to whisper in the ear
Is it the wind that steals about
With soft whispers and ne’er a shout ?
What must I do to make it clear
That God’s rebuke is all I fear ?
We need one man to lead us now
We need this special sacred cow
To him we’ll give fidelity
He is the one who’ll set us free.
Let’s raise our voices to thank him
To save us from a future dim
He offers us another choice
To help our people and rejoice.
We’ll hail this chief and pray for him
Because he takes it on the chin !
This world today is upside down
As chaos roams from town to town
All citizens may suffer so
The enemy will not let go.
How sad if we should lose control
Of all our dreams and of each goal
We’ve come too far to just give up
And swallow lies from Satan’s cup.
Where is the truth that must be told
This hatred now has grown too old
We’re all so tired of the strife
God help us to regain our life !
Tis the time of year when sunshine smiles
And the sky is so clear for miles and miles,
When the birds in the branches of the trees
Circulate their message into the breeze
While the gentle wind does rustle the leaves
Now playing in the shadow of the eaves.
The trees seem to yawn and stretch in the sun
As spreading shrubs have their flowers begun
So it is that our world of growing green
Paints pictures to all of beauty obscene !
There is a world that waits for me
Somewhere across God’s great blue sea
A place where anger can’t exist
And only kindness does persist.
But I’m not sure if I can wait
To make the journey to that Gate
Because my world is falling down
And crushing kindness to the ground.
What shall I do, how can this be
Is this the new heredity ?
Oh Gracious Lord, remember me
For only You can set me free !
I’d like to spend my time imagining
What life is all about and reason why
The Lord decided it was smart planning
And gave us choices to help make us try !
Oh blessed Lord, accept my plea
Grant me the strength to set me free
Open my eyes that I may see
The love and care You’ve offered me.
I am Your servant meek and mild
Your aged and obedient child
I give to You all I possess
My dreams and hopes, my happiness !
Out of the quiet of the hour
Tis now the time for peace to flower
When angels rest the air turns still
So hope may shine upon yon hill
Thus power rests in present thought
Of all the lessons life has taught.
We need replace man’s lack of love
With kindness shared from God above,
Take heart and dream what life’s about
And learn to live with faith devout !
My gratitude, dear God above
I am surrounded by true love
My fate’s been sealed and is secure
There’s no escape, of this I’m sure
The time grows late, what else is left
Too soon it is, the world’s bereft !
There remains certain moments we encounter every day
When we are at our leisure and the world’s prepared to pray
Aft the silence has been broken and eventide occurs
And times spent all together aren’t his or aren’t hers .
When all our simple pleasures are aligned there side by side
And the honeymoon is over without some silly pride
May the Good Lord take the measure of tasks already done
Guaranteeing life’s diversion twist happiness and fun !
THANX TO SECOND CHANCES
Now I have trod a thousand miles and cried a million tears
I’ve lived a life of much regret that’s filled with foolish fears
And wondered why the world is sad and so misunderstood
That sometimes in the long run we can’t tell the bad from good
Our God is in His heaven, He’s awaiting each one’s choice
What will it be we have chosen to exercise our voice ?
WRITTEN WHILE UNDERGOING CHEMO AT SLOANE KETTERING THIS AM
Now I have dreamt a dream or two
And spent a lifetime loving you
I’ve prayed and hoped we two would be
Together through eternity !
It seems each road shall have an end
Without a lover or a friend
The seasons change or pass away
And move on by, day after day
The stars above fade aft each night
And disappear in morning’s light.
The sun will break its fast at dawn
While we are left to carry on
How lonely that one lifetime seems
With out its history and dreams
As all pass into the oblique
Deserting every quest we seek !
Celestial bodies in the sky
All flash and wink in passing by
I wonder if they query why
No other objects fly so high !
There is a numbness that I feel
An emptiness that’s so unreal
Sensation lost and caring less
All part of my renewed distress
I am so weak, my strength is gone
Great effort just to carry on.
Oh how I wish to stronger be
And stand up to adversity
Perhaps one day I’ll find success
With God to teach me all the rest !
Dear Lord above please set us free
From much of life’s indignity
Please teach us now how to survive
These terrors which all seem to thrive
Be thoughtful of each act performed
And to the rules try to conform.
Be kind to those who are alone
And left to linger on their own
Beg God remember everyone
Whose suffering is not yet done
Protect us Lord from daily fright
With rising sun to closing night !
Take a good look around and tell me what you see
The beauty that is God’s and life’s infinity
Please hold me by the hand and teach me how to pray
Help me to love God and to worship Him each day !
AMEN.
Outside the window the world awaits
For the Lord to raise the pearly gates
And for all the clouds to disappear
Before we have spent half of the year
The time has arrived and gone away
To leave us bereft and in dismay.
Dear Lord above forgive us our sin
Open our hearts and welcome God in
May we forever live in the glow
Of every wonder God has to show !
Oh little child who dotes on sweets
With dancing shoes attached to cleats
Black patent taps that click away
And to the world new steps display.
This child to theatre newly brought
With skills and talents often sought
Hear now the sound of tapping feet
Proceed to stage, steps and the street.
How shall we serve our Lord the best
Accepting every sort of test
And understanding as we do
That all we are belongs to You !
So many words spring from the pain
That is attacking me again,
Oh, how I wish one day to be
From all of this forever free !
Oh wind that breaks upon the waves
And breeze that shares each morning’s gaze
Teach me to chant a pirate song
That I to seafaring belong.
Oh save my heart from lonesomeness
While all my handicaps confess
Help me to strive for constancy
And all my weaknesses foresee.
Hand me the light that I might shine
It’s endless glow on yours and mine
God let us put our toys away
Make ready for our Judgement Day !
My heart calls out His holy name
And searches for the way He came
To Calvary onto the cross
To suffer there man’s greatest loss,
But who am I to question why
The Son of God was born to die !
Angels from heaven are tapping on my door
I’m not upset cause I’ve heard them tap before
I comprehend their job and what must be done
I sure could use hands on with some help for fun !
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Claire V. Bogdanos 