The pain is real and so intense
What shall I do for my defense
Oh blessed Lord reach out to me
And grant me some immunity
My faith is strong what shall I do
To prove that I believe in You ?
I’ve made the best of what I’ve got
And know this is my final shot
Please help me Lord to find some peace
As from this place I beg release !
AMEN.
What is this madness that we face
That’s taking up our total space
There is great danger spreading here
A danger that we all must fear.
Beware, because the Devil’s come
He is destroying everyone
This is a warning that’s come late
When ever will this hate abate ?
Oh Blessed Lord, we beg You please
Observe Your children on their knees
Reach out to all who are in pain
To save them from this world insane !
Oh Lord, there is so much pain I feel
It goes on and on, forever real
I cannot escape its iron grasp
With each breath I take, it’s like my last.
Sometimes I think it would better be
To close my eyes in lost victory
Because this needs all the strength I’ve got
One of those days that I’d rather not !
My heart is heavy, laden down
As my whole world is turned around
My face is veiled and hidden by
Shadows of tears I cannot cry.
The silence of the night is there
To masque the cloak of fear I wear
Oh blessed Lord make my way light
Please help me get through one more night !
Oh charity, be kind to me
Please help me set my body free
How much longer can I persist
What shall I do to pain resist ?
At times I’m sure there’ll be no end
More like a life without a friend
I didn’t think I’d have to bear
Unending pain or deep despair.
I am not angered or divorced
With all the issues time’s enforced
I only know that God is there
To ease all pain and answer prayer !
The past, it was, but is no more
It tip-toed out of my back door
And left behind so much regret
Twill take a lifetime to forget.
Though I don’t think it ever will
Until my heart at last lies still
I miss you now, it won’t abate
A mother’s love has no due date !
Of all the joys I’ve ever known
The ones I treasure as my own
Are those that I have always spent
Enclosed under God’s earthly tent !
Days when I’m sure I can’t go on
Because the pain is never gone
It tries my patience and my faith
But love of God keeps my heart safe.
And if I keep believing thus
Another day is one more plus
I must have hope to stir my soul
And make tomorrow my next goal !
My heart so full I cannot bear
The fact that you will not be there
There’s no warm seat by the fireside
Or any joy I feel inside.
The chimney’s cold, no fire is lit
I am so lost where e’er I sit
However long will this pain last
What will it take before it’s passed ?
I do not know, not you nor I
Or all the angels in the sky
What occurs when a loved one dies
And there’s no way left for goodbyes !
My life moves on, I’m still alive
And plan to think, react and thrive
I’m no fading bud on the vine
Nor am I some sweet valentine !
What e’er I am, there’s no mistake
I’m flexible, I will not break
The power in me comes from my God
Whose taught me this, real life is hard !
This child I held close to my breast
Has left me now to be at rest
His life of pain at last set free
Upon God’s unrelenting sea.
This was his battle for too long
He tried so hard, he was so strong
But here we are, this is the end
I’ll miss you son, my life, my friend.
I doubt if we shall meet again
Another time, but where or when,
There’s none to know or even learn
Truth is, no one has e’er returned !
I wish there were another way
To chase this useless ache away
It matters not our needs today
What e’er occurs is come what may !
I’m just so tired of all this pain
I shall never be alright again
Seems every joint has its own complaint
What an ugly picture time does paint !
I won’t give in, that is not my style
I’ve plowed through this with a glued-on smile
Guess I’ll start the process right away
Can’t afford to waste another day.
Forgive me Lord, I’ve forgotten how
To undo this pain and need help now !
Today I trudged along the road
While packing quite a bulky load
My spirit crushed by all the stress
My soul in pain, under duress.
I wish I knew what I should do
To help myself and see this through
At times I feel the battle’s lost
Since I can’t count the total cost
I’ll keep on trying to hold fast
This effort will not be my last
Since God and me are like a team
Let’s pray the outcome is a dream !
Sometimes the pain is so intense
I cannot aid my own defense
The only drug I wish to find
Is what’s propelling my own mind.
No complicated opioids
Nor any “cillins” or steroids
I’m so much stronger than that crap
Who needs to fall into the trap ?
There are some words we all should say,
“Please help us Lord get through this day
Grant us the strength to overcome
The evil that this world’s become!”
I get so tired of all the pain
How I wish that I could start again
What I’d give to have a chance to be
Someone who lives in a world ache free
But that concept will not fly right now
I need learn to struggle through somehow
While faith in the Lord, a prayer or two
May part the clouds and help clear the view !
I see the flag o’er coffins draped
Our values and our nation raped
And youth that we look forward to
Who shall inherit all we do ?
These are the victims of the crime
That worsens with passing of time
Oh Lord, please say a special prayer
To save us from this dark despair !
The legs won’t move, they seem possessed
And cause great pain with no redress
The body aches and labors so
It is an effort just to go.
With time all problems multipy
There is no way one can defy
The chronic ills that ageing brings
To life and limb and loads of things !
What is this hell that men call war
What is it they are fighting for
They’ve wasted so much blood and gore
We’ve known it all and want no more !
Oh Lord sometimes I find I cannot bear
This useless pain I suffer everywhere
I’ve searched so hard to find another way
To force this endless ache to fade away.
My strength is gone and my courage got lost
As I feel myself in a tempest tossed
Dear Lord, what shall I do to set me free
Help me to score this last small victory !
I wish, I wish that I could be
A magic fairy on a spree
Or Christmas star upon your tree
And if not that, a busy bee
To buzz around and set you free
So you may spend the day with me.
Thus from our pain we both shall flee
Before the queen sits down to tea
And other children can agree
The time is now to live with glee !
Sometimes the pain’s too much to bear
Sometimes defense is meant to share,
I’ve often wished that I could fly
On cushioned wings into the sky
Escaping earth and its confines
Midst all the angst that life defines
I understand as one earthbound
What I search for is not aground !
When life seems poorly, sad or tragic
Please try a smile, it works like magic
It is contagious as you can see
Most all folks react like you and me.
Have you noticed those whose mouths turn down
It lends faces that unpleasant frown
What a friendly picture it could be
To see a smile, maybe two or three.
Life certainly has both ups and downs
It would be great if we saw less frowns !
I thank you God for life is kind
There always is some good to find
Though painful days will sadness bring
Together with our suffering.
Sometimes we rise beyond the past
To find the calm we dream may last
For life is more than stuff or things
It’s full of joyous happenings
It’s peace and love, laughter and song
God’s world in which we all belong !
One cannot know just how I feel
About a war that was so real
There is no way I will forget
All those sad days that haunt me yet
And sometimes when I’m in sleep land
The visions seem too close at hand.
I pray to God we’ll never know
The ugliness that from wars flow
Quite often when I’m at my ease
I beg of God, end all wars please !
My heart is torn and needs repair
Where e’er I look I sight despair
Oh gracious Lord, please bring us peace
And from this pain grant our release !
The mind has trod a narrow path
With subtle warnings nature hath
Endowed the shadows of the past
In tyrannies that failed to last.
We find ourselves in madness caught
Another lesson to be taught
Insanities surround us all
How shall we answer to the call ?
Our lives so very full of pain
When shall we feel alright again ?
At times the pain is so intense
That even tears are no defense
I want to run or fly away
When all my prayers can’t save the day
I do not see how else to live
And need your help to please forgive
Those days that I have thought to die
Before my time to bid goodbye.
I know that there is more to say
Please guide me Lord, show me the way !
I live with pain that never ends
At length, we have become old friends
I’ve learned to thrive in spite of it
At times it takes a bit of grit !
I’ve dreamt a dream wherein I win
But that’s if God will count me in
I need His help and love and care
Without that, I will get nowhere !
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Claire V. Bogdanos 