EXCUSE ME, here I am in my ageing wheelchair, at my really old kitchen farm table, 38″ x 26″, circa 1900, with its aproned multi-turned vintage legs and truly discreet 1+” rollers on a beautiful Sunday morning having my usual breakfast of juice, black coffee in an ironstone mug, half a sliced banana and exactly 10 mini wheat squares with fat-free half & half ! Precise, right ? It’s early AM, this room has 8 solarfilmed windows, each 3′ x 6′, all covered by beige old fashioned lace curtains. With windows all open, the curtains rising and fluttering in the breeze, I can hear the church bells in the distance, there are 4 churches within a 2 block radius of my current residence. It’s like a symphony in carillon ! Waves of nostalgia wash over me and I am transported to a place almost 80 years ago in the past ! All this time yet that destination is not a mile away from here nor a minute away from my dearest memories ! This is about one of those cardboard signs my nana had in a streetside window, CURTAINS STRETCHED, 25 cents a pair. My grandpop was an ironworker ( Fagan, Tietjen & Lang, Federal, Todd and Bethlehem Steel ) and he made her an adjustable curtain stretcher which my agile childsized fingers could manipulate with the help of a small stepstool, also homemade ! My job after school was to take that agate pan full of starchwater and soaking lace, layering on as many panels at a time to dry in the afternoon sun ! As my nana would say, “idle hands do the devil’s work”. Haha, I don’t think he ever had a chance with me ! How about you ? By the way, that half-banana is low on my fav list but high in potassium, or is that an old wives tale ? Sincerely, Claire B.
LAMENTATION ( 2015 )
There is a longing in my heart
That has been forever there
I don’t know how it got its start
I can only guess from where.
I’ve begged the Lord to help me out
As oftentimes I feel lost
I find myself quite full of doubt
No way now to count the cost.
I am the sum of all my fears
In truth I possess a few
I’ve laughed and cried a million tears
All of them seemed overdue.